MiNi MiNa the one and only

Sunday, June 25, 2006
4:57 AM

GRADUATION!!!

Congratulations, I and everyone else in my batch are now officially a graduand of NYP...3 cheers for all those who have made it this far...n for all those who have guided us through this path of our life...

Well basically, NYP has given mi a lot of memories and moments to cherish...be it all d good n bad times...it seems like 3 yrs of sch life has ended just in a blink of an eye...we all used to dread coming to sch n waking up early in d morn...always eager to skip lectures n tutorials...swearing n cursing wen we are not happy with any policies...an all other things...but i guess now if we were to all think about it again...it was really foolish of us to do so...hehe...but all that still contributed to the fun we had...still remembered d gatherings, slacking moments, "sharing sessions", and heart to heart talk we alwyas had wenever ders free time n we're bored...

sometimes i just wish that sch has not ended soo fast for all of us...however, the bond that we have created will never be forgotten eventhough we may have all gone our separate ways...

hmm the truth is i actually cried on that day...23 June...on grad ceremony in d audi...i was like so sad to leave sch...cz i know that things will never be d same again like d sch days...n we wont be able to see other every single day...well not unless if we were to find work at d same company...hehe which def is not 100% possible...

well right now its time we face with another new beginning of our life...that is...the working world...to those my frenz out der who has found a job already...congrats n keep ur job properly...as for mi..i shall have to try much more harder to find jobs...

i guess its time i stop being too choosy...have been gg for so many intvws but still got no jobs offered...i guess it may also be becoz i am very shy and i am afraid to talk during the intvw...im sure that every employer wants their candidate to be someone who can work independantly, outgg, well spoken, and above all have the drive n motivation...if you are very reserved, afraid to face the world, keep things to urself, then things will never work out for you...you are not ready to be in d workforce...

the truth is i managd to find a job last mth...but i rejected it cz i dun like d job scope...accounting...i just dun feel like doing it as i prefered smtg more administrative...i just dun want to deal with numbers amd im just afraid that if i were to make a mistake, i will screw up a lot of things...but i guessed ive made a very very wrong move der...if not i would have already worked now...furthermore, the company was willing to teach me from scratch but i guess i din realise d limits of my capabilities...n now regrets is all i have...but wat to do...ive made that choice...n ive made dat mistake...this time...watever opportunities i have i will grab...even if d pay is low n d job is not wat i want...coz im desperately in need of one...but i guess i might want to be in a call centre...i think being in an office environment is not my forte...

i realised it only when i went for an intvw last sat n had a talk with the interviewer...for once i was lost for words n cudn think of wat to do or say...n its like im brain dead...it may b becos ive not been working for a mth nw so my brain has stopped being useful...but i guess i might do well in a call centre eventhough the prospect is not that very good...still ive been like doing it wenever i work part time n even during my insch attachment...

as for now...all d best to me in finding a job...a right one that is...n to my frenz...all d best in life...MISS YA ALL..

MiNi MiNa ©®™-`

Sunday, May 28, 2006
10:30 AM

im so sick...SICK SICK SICK...SICK in the BRAIN, MIND, HEART, EVERYWHERE...im just so sick n tired of all these games...y cant it all stop??? y cant anyone just understand what im going through...y is it that everytime i have to think of others but when will others just think of me...its just not fair...life is never fair...but i just want that chance for me to be free...untie my wings and let me fly...

i just cant do anyhing much in this situation...

now what is sooo special about me...CAN I KNOW???

for once an someone please please please tell me...im really tired of going through all this...

why do you have to like me soo much? i know i should eb very lucky that there is someone out there who loves me and wants to care for me...but i think youve just done too much for me...i just cant seem to find the right key to unlock my door yet...do give me time...ur actions are so scaring me...u may not realise it but it really does scare me a lot...it scares me soo much that i dare not let you not tell me whats going on...i hope im not giving you false hope but i am really scared of what you are bound to do...

its just so different now...at least in the past i can still run away without any worries and give all kinds of excuse...but now i cant anymore...im just so tired of running now...and looking at the situation now its much harder to run now....help me please somebody...help me get out of this mess that im in..

i so really hate it facing problems of the heart...

MiNi MiNa ©®™-`

Thursday, October 27, 2005
6:26 PM

LAST DAY....

well def today will be d last day of IPP wic means its my last day in this company...as for now of course...unless i decide to work here again...im not sure how i will spend my day today hope it wont lag as much as yest....

well last nite was not such a good nite kinda thing...while 1 had to go through the trouble of getting something done...there are another that really is unappreciative....not evn a mere thank you...instead got scolding from them...they jz dunno hw much it break ones heart to feel unappreciated...n its not like they dunno abt it...why cant they jz accpt it whether they like it or not n if they want changes to be made y cant they speak nicely or ask a favour in a tactful way...y resort to shoutings n anger...its stoopid i tell...its really unwise...n bcz of dat...i felt so bloody boiled the whole nite...i cant take it...jz dun let me explode i tell u...i may be queit but i may be a walking time bomb ok...dun even try to pull the pin or will blast off rite in ur face...i dun care if i cant take it anymore...dun blame me or anyone for that...u only have urself to blame...go do some soul searching man....i hate ppl who are like that...throw tantrum for nuting...BULLSHIT

k now another thing....

well had a really mere coincidence...n it really is a coincidence...imagine this...u dreamt abt a person dat nite n d next morn d same person msgd u n say "u jz crossed my mind"...hahaha...coincidence rite...someone thinking of u n u dreamt of dat person...well i guess cz we've not been in contact for quite some time now n maybe well yea i dunno y i kept tinking of him too...maybe miss my old time fren soo much...one of d closest guy frenz i have...shared too many things in d past wit him...but now all go separate ways oredi...well im not d oni gir though ders 2 girs n a guy...wakakaka...wonder how is he nw...hmm i guess this calls for a reunion wit old frenz huh...hahahah....

MiNi MiNa ©®™-`

Wednesday, October 26, 2005
11:14 PM

IM BORED!!! REally BORED!!!

My goodness i really can't wait to end this ordeal man...really got nnuting to do for the day basically throughout the whole morning n till now ive been doing quizzes on tickle cz ders really nuting to be done here...n well since im bored i tried a few tests n d results are...

What Kind of Kisser Are You?
Bashful Kisser

Who Catches Your Eye?
Boy Next Door

So, What's Your Thing?
Natural Beauty

What Does Your Room Say About You?
Edgy

What's Your Signature Color?
Pink Chiffon

What's Your Flavor?
Sweet

Which Emoticon Are You?
Brainiac

What Flavor Fits You?
Playful Passion Fruit

The Color Test
Cheerful

What's Your True Color?
Red

What Kind of Shopper Are You?
Bargain Buyer

The Zodiac Match Test
Virgo

Are You Evil?
Evil Middle Low

MiNi MiNa ©®™-`

hey peeps....guess wat...tmr will be ma last day of IPP...happy? erm not really.....sad? hahah i dun tink so...so wat am i feeling?? i really dunno...crap....well anyway watever it is i certainly am not looking forward to start sch on mon...hafta wake up damn early sey...8am lect...my goodness..well i tink ive saod enuf abt sch timetable oredi...n so now lets rarnt abt other stuff...

1st agenda:
I WAS CHEATED...for 2 consecutive days....was cheated of my money...my goodness i dunno y with high tech still cn get cheated...blame myself too for not checking the receipt on d spot...haiz but wat to do?? hopefully wont get cheated agn today or any other day....

2nd agenda:
today aft work me gg to nonya house...collect baju...yeay...n not so yeay too...hhahaha...this yr me will pay for all d clothes sent to nonya for d whole family...n guess hw much dat costs in tot for hmmm 6 pairs....lua latus ampat pulu lima...aiyoyo...gua ala bannyyyak punyya tepelanjat lo...banyyak punyya halma lo...gaji gua har balu ampat latus...mau kasi itu nonyya 245...gua tinggal belapa aja lo...gua banyyak punya selih lo...
ape boleh buat...so no more sending to that nonya oredi...v expensive...can get cheaper if u buy...well its jz a simple baju kurung for mi n my mum n a telok blangah baju for d 3 guys...n 1 guy suit is lima pulu lollar...i won mind d price if i make a v complicated suit or something...but its really a simple suit...a basic one dat is...

3rd agenda:
for the past 2 weeks...it has kinda been a games week for me...frankly speaking...really got nuting to do here...been bugging them to give me work...well yea i know i shd be grateful i got no work so can relex...but its really boring if u come to work everyday knowing u got nuting to do...might jz as well stay at hm rite...can wake up later n do alot of other things...but well anyway tmr is d last day...n am i prepared to leave? heheh...welll kind of though...brought back all my stuff except for jackete n evaluation book...will bring back the book today...as for d jacket maybe tmr...n am gonna shred all d paper away...hahahah...

4th agenda:
n so with the end on my daily IPP in d office...means no more daily internet acces...home no more internet...cut off oredi...so only left with school facilities...so wic also means no more daily updates unless i go to lab everyday n update...but no matter wat will still try to update...wont let it be dead for long...hehehe

MiNi MiNa ©®™-`

Monday, October 24, 2005
7:57 PM

gooda morning people...another surprise of d day...my boss gave me a testimonial...wow...dats great n well not really of a surprise cz he did told mi in d beginning that he will write one for mi...but din expect to really give me one...well anyway...dats a good news...well he'll be away from tmr onwards dats y...but den he made an earlier mov than me...i wanted to give them all a card but then...he gave mi one first...but nvm i will still give them a card...made by miiiiiii...hehehhe....ive oredi tot of what to write in...but the only prob is i can only do at hm...cz i will def hafta print it at hm...cant possibly print in d office rite....its meant to be a surprise...but d thing is i dun have internet at home...so cant mail me my own work rite...n ders no A: drive...only got thumb drive...but i got no thumb dive...so how???

well so it means i hafta do it at hm rite...

n well today at least ive been doing work since morning...otherwise it will be another games day for me...heheh...k n well yea now back to work....

Sunday, October 23, 2005
9:01 PM

looking at d date...its like about a week ++ more to raya...heheh...well excited???hmmz i dun really know though...dis yr dun seem to be really dat interesting for mi...ive not evn been to geylang dis yr...guess ive been busy working...my mum working...n my sis is aldready wit her husband..n most of d time at her in-laws...my bro having his o-levels during raya...n d oni ones left wit nuting to do is my lil bro n my dad...d rest are like too busy to evn think of raya...i dun evn feel the ramadhan passing by...haiz...but still i wonder how dis yr's raya will go by...last yr was an emotional one for mi...dunno y i cried asking for forgiveness...it was d first time i cried for hari raya..n i hope it wont happen agn dis yr...cz i really hate to show my tears in front of my famile members...furthermore my parents...well we'll jz see how it goes...n yea another things dat really makes raya not exciting at all dis yr is bcz of financial wise...things are really getting more expensive n d bills are piling up bcz of the increase in oil prices which def affect PUB bills...n other bills too...expenses has been high des few mths due to a series of event...my sis wedding...prearing for raya...clothes...ingredients for kuehs...raya money for lil kids...n on top of dat monthly bills...haiz...wat an expensive life to live...i really hate to tink of finance wise but no choice..really hafta budget a lot dis year...n ya not forgetting the fact dat im starting sch on raya week...wic also means more money to buy books...haiz...my salary is jz enuf to help my mum pay nonya for raya clothes...buy ingredients for kuehs n my books plys bill n transport...d rest hafta leave it to my mum to pay...not enuf money to eat otherwise...haiz..im lucky dat dis mth is fasting mth otherwise...i really dunno how much more expenses will der be....

counting down...its d last 5 days to ipp...n ive been dreading to wake up every morn...it seems like my eyes n mind jz wanna cont wit the sleep...ders been nuting much to do here...really...ders really nuting to do unless dey gimme something...i feel so bored till i played gams with erwin online...n yea its good in a way coz at least i have time for my report...but doing the report for almost everyday d whole really bores me man...i need to do something else...have been bugging my bosses to give me work but they also got nuting for me..except once in a while they ask to help file in or type docs...but dats all...ders really nuting to look forward to now...well as for my report...not to worry i have the help from my boss hehehe...printed out n askd him to help mi actually...will be discussing with him later at 4...still thnx to raf n win for helping mi thoughout...

n yes...talking abtt end of ipp...it also means d beginning of sch...i really dun look forward to d start of sch....d only thing i look forward to is meeting my friends...y i dun feel like gg back to sch...d reasons are simple...ive been gg there for every sat...walking through an empty alley all d time...so much so dat no one exist in dat sch anymore...well its a sat n holz. so wat can i expect rite...2nd reason being der are 3 days wit lessons starting at 8 am....oh how i hate waking up early...so wic means i have to wake up at 6 for these 3 days...n worse still 1 of d day is MONDAY,,,my goodness...moday blues man...

but no matter wat i will do my best as a student...heheh i will try not to miss any classes or lect...n will do my tut everytime...pay attn for all lessons whether i like it or not...n fulfill my last sem well...as a student of d sch n as a member of STAGEARTS....

*well hope i live up to my word...hhehe...

Wednesday, October 19, 2005
9:19 PM

look at d date man...its only like wat 6 more days n dats it...back to school...so is it good news or bad news...well wad'ya tink ppl...if u ask mi i would say good n bad...good coz i can meet my frenz agn n enjoyz...n well yea all d good stuff der is abt sch...but bad because my timetable sucks...mon wed n thurs i start at 8...soo much earlier than my starting work time...n i jz cant wake up early...if i have to wake up early i have to sleep early...aiyo n sumore d mon morn is spoilt man by some lect face whom we all "lurve" soo much...n well dats part n parcel of student's life...

n now as abt report...im oredi brain dead...left with only 2 parts n its d part dat i really dun noe wat to write abt...haiyo....i stress la like tis...but well hoping to get help frm sumone...raf...hope u can help mi...u can use my rerport as example too for ur own idea for certain parts...

as for end of IPP...i dunno y bt des few days i feel like im gonna miss this place soo much...n d thing is...its only now dat im starting to bond with them...i start to communicate with them,...its really v sad sey...n well its jz mi dat i dunno how to comm n get used to things at an early start...but then agn...its ok..i will def want to keep i touch with them...who know i might just work here after grad....hehehe...at least got a job to secure...

so dats it for now...i guess its back to report...currently for d whole of this week not much work for mi to do...so only got rpeort to finish...hehehe....